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Hello Hello:)

I've been.... thinink a lot lately... about life, religion , love....

let's start with : 3. Love 

I'm sick and tired of love...and every love talking just gives me headache.
Love songs makes me wanna puke!

I've been seriously broken hearted , and I was devastated, but right now I'm strong, and absolutley resistant... which means... No "love" for now.

Even if I feel like this right now, I still believe in this fairytales ( which are full of bullshit most of the time) but... Hey I'm still a girl and still a dreamer. So right now.. I just wanna have fun.. and I date some guys who normally I wouldn't date, because I would be afraid that the only think that they expect from me is Sex , and yeah..that is truth most of the time:) but I'm not afraid anymore . I met awesome people , crazy indeed ! but spening time with them is definetley FUN. and that is what I  We live in the world that sex & money rule the world ( it's not quite the world I would like to see) but while I'm living in it...I'm taking the chances !

2.Religion

Oh well..this is the time when I would say Houston, We've Got a Problem 

and indeed I've been struguling with my faith lately... didn't went to church few times, didn't wanted to go to the church I've got my personal issues. I never stop believe in God, Of course I believe in God, and he is great...but I feel to much control from the church's side.. which I don't really appriciate that. So...I went to the church last Sunday it was very nice, I may say I'm back on the right track :) We will see what it will be like with me being faithfully.

1. Life...

I love my life.. even if it's totally fucked up :) I really enjoy it !
And if on 21rst of December the end of the world is going to happen... TRY ME...I'm ready, I don't regret anything what I did in my life...
I've been through a lot, but that made me a person that I am today. I am a good person ... far from perfect..and I'm not even trying...
I must say Shit happens and yeah...I just gained 3 more kg !!
haha ( after loosing 6,5 kg.) I better start running again... :D haha.. oh well
Life is great ! even if it sucks sometimes ! Just keep on smiling ! You are Awesome!